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Perl module for DNS.
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The ledge that I was fishing from along the bank of the Clyde River. It was still, very still, every now and then a fish would leap out of the water and make a splash, if you were fast enough you could catch a glimpse of it. Bass was the flavour of fish here, this is what the signs said, but we didnt get to catch any.
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It was friday afternoon, I sat before three people, two of which were very familiar to me and a third that I knew of. It was the job interview that broke me, the last three job interviews I have had have been a breeze, but the pressure surmounted and the plethoric feeling of blankness enveloped me and swept me into a world where only time ticks by and nothingness surrounds you like a thoughtless cavern.
Before I knew it, it was over and what should have been mine was now swept into a blank void of frustration. I wasnt prepared enough and I payed the price, the feelings of confidence loss that engulfed me during the days before were now amplified as the realisation of the outcome - there is a good chance I wont get this job, and there is nothing I can do about it.
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The begining of the end Its been a tough weekend, well not so tough that is until late yesterday afternoon. Yesterday was my birthday, a day that we celebrate as a recurance of the day that one was born into this world, as I found out it also was the day that my uncle was taken from this world. I am not one who believes in superstitious events but the night before last I woke gagging for air, feeling dizzy, unable to talk or lift any part of my body, this lasted for a couple of minutes and went. Was this the time my uncle passed on? I never knew the man, I only met him once when I was young, so young that I dont remember him. The closest dealings that I have ever had with him were through my cousin, his daughter who had come to Australia last February. Why did I feel the way I did the night before, was I just feeling sick or was it some kind of connection? I felt fine this morning, no reminiscent feelings of last nights illness. This is something that I will never know. |
Updates I am too lazy at the moment, I need to add some more content, the site needs it, I need to do it so I can stop thinking about doing it, but I am feeling lazy, very lazy, so lazy in face that its a struggle to get up. Its 1:52am at the moment.
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